MaterniT21/NIPT Results are In!

My Hope JarPregnant Again After Loss

This morning I was lying in bed scrolling through my email on my phone and procrastinating getting up and starting my day when the best email ever popped into my inbox. It was from the genetic counselor. I immediately burst into tears without even reading it yet because I knew it was good news. She told us she would email the results if it was good news and only call if something came back that we needed to discuss. Seeing that email in my inbox brought on a flood of happy emotions. I finally got control over my emotions and logged onto my Kaiser account and read the message:

Subject heading: Good news on your test results  (fresh tears of joy)

I just wanted to let you know that the results of your non-invasive prenatal test (NIPT) through Verinata are NORMAL. The test results are negative with the following interpretation:

Results are consistent with the normal number of chromosomes 21, 18, 13
(more tears)

and…

sex chromosomes (XY). Results suggest that the baby is most likely a boy.

A Boy! (full on bawling again 🙂 Happy tears!)

Thank you, thank you God! Gotta love that “most likely” comment thrown in there to cover their butts just in case, but looks like a boy! I really thought this baby was a girl! Just shows how much I know 🙂 I am beyond thrilled, I can’t even describe it! I still have so many worries, especially about getting HELLP again, but this news is huge. I just can’t believe it. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

It’s so hard to believe all that has happened in just one year.

A year ago, we had suffered another loss and were just beginning to embark on IVF with PGD so we could test our embryos and hoped it would prevent another loss. Then we went through two retrievals to get enough embryos for testing, but after all of that, we only had one normal embryo and it failed to implant. It was devastating. We almost gave up then. But after a lot of discussion and prayer, we decided to go back to trying on our own again and accepted that it might mean more losses. And it did. We had a chemical pregnancy the very next cycle.  We could have given up then, but our faith prevailed and we kept going. And then two cycles later, we became pregnant with this pregnancy. And here we are. So what have I learned? We have no control over any of this and we’re so happy we never gave up.

We don’t regret doing IVF or the $30,000 it cost for the 2 retrievals, meds, PGD and FET because it gave us a lot of information and it ultimately let us know that we would do anything to have a baby. We realized we weren’t ready to give up even if the best option moving forward was to go back to trying on our own and accepting that it might mean more loss. We realized it was a risk we were willing to take because we had already survived so much loss and disappointment. In reality, we knew it the day we lost our son. We told ourselves that if we could survive that, we could survive anything together and we have.

We still have a long way to go, but for the first time in as long as I can remember, I feel calm. I feel truly happy. Not just the surface happy that I have been projecting to the world for a while now, but really happy. I finally believe this might be okay. I’m scared to even write it out for fear it might jinx something, but as my mother reminded me this morning, there’s only one who knows how this will turn out, and He doesn’t believe in jinxing 🙂  If you told me a year ago, that I would be pregnant again, and days away from moving into my second trimester with a healthy baby boy, I’m not sure I would have believed it. I still had hope a year ago that it could happen, but I wasn’t sure if it actually would. My hope was certainly being tested a year ago. Even 3 months ago, and yet now, my hope is glowing brighter than ever.

Some of you asked if I would share my announcement here on my blog once I decide to share our news with the world and yes! I will absolutely share it here too 🙂 I’m still thinking it will be after the 18-20 week mark once we have our anatomy scan. Our news today was amazing, but the genetic counselor reminded me in her closing remarks that the NIPT test is not a 100% guarantee, so I think for me, I’ll finally be ready to make that announcement once we have the anatomy scan and can see all of baby’s organs and know for sure that our little boy is okay!

I also still have my 10, 11 and 12 week belly pics to post and the full progress report on where we’re at in this pregnancy, but I’ll post that later in the week. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t continue to think about all of you, my fellow IF/RPL bloggers.  I know so many of you are still in the trenches of that place I was in not that long ago, and I know how painful these pregnancy progress reports can be to read, so I want to keep that post separate, and you can choose to read it or not. I completely understand and won’t be offended at all if you need to skip by that post.

Please continue to keep our boy in your prayers and know that I am constantly keeping all of you in my prayers too <3

 

 

 

54 thoughts on “MaterniT21/NIPT Results are In!”

    1. Thank you so much Elisha! Your prayers and well wishes always mean so much! And I am always thinking about you and praying for you too!

    1. I’m so happy my story gives you hope hon. Right after our failed FET in Feb, I was feeling pretty low and another blogger, Project Sweetpea (http://projectsweetpea.wordpress.com), had just announced the results of her MaterniT21 test and I had the same feeling of hope. She had 6 miscarriages before this current pregnancy of hers. I remember the loss she had right before and how lost and devastated she was, and then to see her go on to have a healthy pregnancy (I think she’s around 30 weeks now), was like a beacon of hope for me. Still is. I know it’s so hard to see it happening right now, but I still have so much hope that you will have your own miracle baby soon, regardless of whether you proceed with adoption or not.

      Your support means so much to me hon <3

    1. Thank you so so much hon <3 I am so excited for you and your beautiful blessing too! It's so special that we have been on this journey together and now get to be bump buddies too 🙂

    1. Thank you so so much hon. Saying so many prayers for you and your little one too! Can’t wait for your next update! Lots of love and hugs back <3

  7. Omg I am so happy to hear this! I hope things continue to go well for you and that we’ll both be delivering healthy babies around the new year!! 🙂

  10. So happy for you!! Congrats on a boy!! How exciting!!!! Glad he’s healthy 🙂 I think the primrose oil had something to do with it 😉 lol

      1. You’re too sweet! I’m doing well! I’ve been so bad at blogging and feel as about that, but all is well! I will try and update soon! We got to see baby today and Dr said all looks well, although baby wasn’t cooperative for the ultrasound tech and we weren’t able to get a good picture, but I was just happy to be there! I am so happy for you and can’t wait for your next update! I kept thinking about your miracle this week and kept thanking God that I was able to follow your miraculous story- this baby was so meant to be and is going to be so special and loved!

        1. Oh hon, you’re making me cry! I really feel that this little guy really is our miracle. I can’t stop thanking God either.

          Yay! I’m so glad all went well at your ultrasound and that all is good with your little one! Isn’t it funny how they won’t cooperate for the stills? Don’t they know we want keepsakes? 🙂 Don’t feel bad about not blogging, I’m sure you’ve been very busy! Just so glad to hear all is well with you too! Your little one is a precious miracle too <3 Containing to send prayers your way!

  14. I have been following your blog for quite some time after I lost my son in March, 32 hours after birth, to a condition we didn’t know he had until he was born (and we had been through IVF to get pregnant after years of trying). The devastation was (and still is) overwhelming to say the least. Your blog has been a great comfort to me because you have also been through so much and I feel I can truly relate to you. I am crying right now because I am just so happy for you. I have been praying for you consistently and will continue to. yay for baby BOY!

    1. Oh hon, I’m so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. To go through years of infertility and then have this happen, is just heart wrenching. I can’t stop crying thinking about all you have been through. Praying for peace and light to be with you during this time of healing. I wish I could say the pain goes away over time. It never does, but it does become easier, if that makes sense? I’m so glad my blog has given you comfort. Thank you so much for your prayers. I will be praying for you and your beautiful angel too. Sending you a big hug hon.

        1. I just read your husband’s post. Thank you for sharing it with me. The tears won’t stop flowing. My heart aches for you and your husband. Your husband’s story is so tragic, but also a beautiful testament to your love for your sweet little boy. Sending you the biggest hug hon.

    1. How can it not, right? With all our subsequent losses since my son, it’s been hard to even imagine getting out of the first trimester again, but now that we’re almost there, the fear of getting HELLP again is coming back full force. I know my doctor will be watching me really closely, so hopefully we’ll catch it early enough this time. Or even better, that I don’t get it at all this time! My Dr. said there was something wrong with the placenta with my first pregnancy and that it is likely why I got HELLP and hopefully it won’t happen again. Praying she’s right!

  16. I’m so elated for you both! You deserve this healthy little boy growing in your womb. You’ll be a wonderful mother and your journey has prepared you for that. Congrats!

      1. Also, since I’m awaiting our MaterniT21 results, I noticed that yours came back in 4 days!!! I’m hoping ours are close to that speedy and maybe I’ll have them before the weekend….

        And re-reading this just made me so happy for you!

        1. Oh I hope so too! I know you must be so anxious! It was actually 5 days, but yes it was really quick! They told me it would take a week! so I was really surprised when I got the email from the genetic counselor a few days early.

          Thanks hon. I’m so happy for you too! I can’t wait to find out your baby’s gender!

      2. Also, since I’m awaiting our MaterniT21 results, I noticed that yours came back in 4 days!!! I’m hoping ours are close to that speedy and maybe I’ll have them before the weekend….

        And re-reading this just made me so happy for you all over again.

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