“Sometimes I may hold you a little too tight. I may even check on you ten times in the night. Sometimes I may kiss you a little too much. Cling to you, sing to you, tickle you and such. As you grow up, you may notice me kissing your nose, touching your hair, feeling your toes. I may cry when you walk. Laugh when you talk. Scream when you’re late, coming home from your date. I may very often pull you near because I don’t want you to see my tears. I never want you to have my fears. Because I need you to know I hold you so dear. Cause see, I’m not just your mother. A long time ago, I lost your brother.” ~ Pinterst: Wellness Mama, Mama of Angels ? ??
Category: Recurrent Pregnancy and Infant Loss
Tomorrow
Tomorrow Holdon would have been 7 years old. How has so much time gone by already? And yet a day doesn’t go by that I don’t remember every detail of that day on April 6th, 2010 like it was yesterday. He shouldn’t have been born that day. He wasn’t due to be born until June 26th. But HELLP Syndrome happened to me and he was delivered via emergency c-section at just 27 weeks, 5 days. I was told I had to deliver immediately or I could die and Holdon was in distress, having not grown at all since 24 weeks. He was severely premature, made even worse by severe growth restriction, and a perforation in his small intestine on top of it all. He had to have surgery at only 1 day old to remove the necrotic tissues of the small intestine that had perforated and was left with only 25%. The odds of survival were stacked up against him from the start. The fact that he lived for 3 1/2 months in the NICU is truly amazing and testament to how strong and amazing our little boy was. Time goes on and a lot has changed. It took…Continue reading Tomorrow
OB Appointment
This is just a quick update to let everyone know that after 2 years and 3 months, I have finally completed Archer’s birth story. I think better late than never applies here and yet, now that I’ve written it, I honestly don’t know what took me so long! I’m so happy I have finally written it so I never forget the details of that day. If you’re still interested in reading it after all this time, you can find it on the “Our Miracle Boy” page. Also, we had an appointment with my OB yesterday and everything looked good. Baby girl is doing great and still measuring several days ahead. It’s no big surprise since both the hubby and I are tall, but looks like baby girl is going to be tall like her brother. We also have the date set for our c-section delivery. It will be May 4th as we requested. The force will be strong with this one. 🙂 The only possible issue with this day, is my doctor is set to be on jury duty that entire week, but she was firm that she would make this day happen for us. So we’ll be having an…Continue reading OB Appointment